Mending

Of all the things to think about

It’s you that’s on my mind

As hard as I try, as hard as I cry

Everything seems to remind

Me of what I thought I wanted and what I thought I had

I’ll try to forget and then I remember, it’s all so very sad

“Why me?” is the first question that always comes to mind

But that’s too easy to answer

I’m just too one-of-a-kind!

I’m too intimidating, too assertive in my ways,

Too genuine, too vulnerable

That’s why I hurt for days

But I’m not going to change

I’m not going to regret

Just keep on moving forward

Who knows what will come next?

And then I ask myself, “what if this, this and that?”

But there are so many out there

That concept is almost too hard to grasp

It’s overwhelming to find an answer that provides adequate repair

My heart has been so broken by the power of despair

Here come the tears that flood from my soul

Because the pain is so raw and the love is so cold

Sometimes I think I will never surpass

I get frustrated and I just want to kick his ass

But it’s not his problem or his, it’s mine

And I know the only way I’ll get over it, get through is with time