Monthly Archives: March 2021

Mountain Mind

I’m in need of a vacation, like all the time

I work hard day to day, I stay on the grind

To relax completely, sit back and unwind

Let the stillness of the atmosphere occupy my mind

Soaring, floating amidst the clouds

Suspended, yet grounded to the ground

Pointy tops, wide bases

Spiked, triangular shaped apexes

Climbing mountains, to the top

Literally and metaphorically

My mind can’t be stopped

As sharp as a needle

Sometimes in some spots

Supporting fertile land for vegetation

And covered in rocks

Jade, chartreuse, mossy green grass

Roaring winds, trembling

This too shall pass

Blowing away into the skies

White clouds, tight eyes

A head rush, a thrill, a grand old time

Temporarily forgetting the present, the now

High above the worries and doubt

Inhale tranquillity, exhale virtuosity

Atop a mountain is where peace will be

Peace, passion, purpose stirs inside

Take care of it, nurture it

Let hope arise

May peace, hope, love, joy

Descend down onto you from up above

Blessing Water

A little over a year ago as I was leaving Target

I was blessed

I am blessed

I am always blessed

It’s simple

It was a simple blessing

It made me remember that God is always with me

Here’s a story that shows He’s always looking out

I am a teacher

The staff bathroom is on opposite side of the building, literally a two minute walk

Not relevant to this story

I just want you to know the struggle

Ok, as a nursing mother, I must drink a lot of water

I keep a case of water at work, a case of water in my car

Either in the trunk or a few bottles on the floor of the backseat

So when I saw this water at Target, I knew it was for me.

Imagine I’m getting into my car and a shopping cart just cool rolls past, diagonally

Not so that it’s blocking my exit or anything, but enough that its vector and presence were quite attention grabbing

I then pulled up to the next row of parking spaces to see

Was there a car or van or person who had just pushed this cart diagonally across the parking lot?

There was no one

Was there anyone driving out the parking lot from that direction?

I really did look around

I didn’t see anyone

What would you have done?

Let me tell you what I did

I grabbed the case of water and put it safely in my backseat

It was special

It came from God

That case of water was a blessing

Because I usually keep water in my car

Either in the backseat or in the trunk

But after this particularly long day I didn’t and I hadn’t remembered to grab a bottle off my desk or stop by the corner store to get some

I just left work, thirsty and tired

I went to go get my baby and husband then we drove the hour commute home

He unpacked the day of work and daycare from the car

Then I jetted back out to hit a few stores, Target being first on my list

At my first store stop, God gave me water

I had worked all day, driven home, and set back out to accomplish more

I was already out spending money on my students (my babies as I affectionately call them)

I was doing something good for others, but I wasn’t taking care of myself

God gave me water

I was blessed

I am blessed

I am always blessed

It’s simple

It was a simple blessing

It made me remember that God is always with me

That water was a blessing

Thank you Lord

Unfulfillment

To fulfill is more than to complete or finish a task or obligation

To fulfill, I believe, implies to carry out and succeed at said task or order

To do so with conviction, pride and vigor

Fulfillment requires more

You can complete paperwork, a home improvement project, a cardio workout

But you fulfill a job position, your desires, your destiny

When you do so, it’s done with intent and intensity, with power and purpose

On purpose with prowess

Fulfillment is an abstract entity humans seek throughout their lives.

In their hobbies, relationships, careers, faith and more.

Fulfillment offers a lightness, a type of pure satisfaction within one’s self

It’s intangible and yet, you can feel it

Fulfillment has a warmth that wraps you up and whispers, “You did it.”

But you didn’t, so you feel a profound sense of unfulfillment

It grips you tight and rips you open, bare

Unfulfillment leaves you with uncertainty and bitterness

Unfulfillment gets in your heart, it stains the soul

These sentiments bring out doubt, apathy and stagnation

Unfulfillment of a task or obligation can be disappointing

Such unfulfillment can even be disheartening

Knowing you did not carry out and succeed at manifesting your destiny, becoming your best self, or any God given role is downright dismal

To know you were required or appointed to produce, protect or provide in someway, somehow

And all you did was wish, wonder, walk away and break promises

That is a missed opportunity

That is unfulfillment