Category Archives: Poems

Will I Cry?

We had not spoken in over a year

So we set out on a drive

We chopped it up and asked questions

Really had to dig down inside

I had imagined this moment

And how I would really open up

Then I remembered why we hadn’t talked

And asked myself, “For what?”

What is your purpose?

What was I supposed to miss?

I couldn’t tell you

I can’t remember

It blew away like a kiss is the wind

You’ve been in and out, out and about

Doing that and this

Odd jobs, and chasing clout

What do you even have to show for it?

That you can keep a job

Or get your own crib

For just a couple of years

You almost kind of had it “together”

Then you lost it slowly, but surely

Like a bird’s feathers every year

Bye bye goodbye

New beginnings again

Never settled, never rooted, grounded

Always hoping to ascend

But when it all ends

On the day there’s no tomorrow

I wonder what I’ll feel

Pain or maybe sorrow

I’ll look down at you

I’ll look deep inside me

And ask myself

Will I cry?

I don’t know

R.I.P.

Inspiration

There’s a beautiful Black woman and she inspires me each day

With the quotes she says, the jokes she shares and the ways she makes a way

She keeps pushing, keeps going, keeps fighting, keeps growing

Knowing good and well the kinds of seeds she’s sowing

If she told you her story, there are parts you wouldn’t believe to be true

The challenges that she’s faced and bodied won’t stop the plans she has made up in her mind to do

Each day is a new gift, a blessing from above

So she let’s her light shine and leads each day with love

It’s not a secret that success takes hard work, dedication and focus

She allows you to lean in, learn from her journey and take notes Sis

If you want to be a hater, you can. That’s you.

But hating isn’t cool. Inspiration is the move

Let’s lift each other up, manifest positive things

Let us lift ev’ry voice and sing

Praises, thanks and apologies will bring the right people onto your team

Believe in yourself, believe in the next

Believe that one day your good is the best

Thank you so very much for inspiring me

I pray that you achieve all your dreams

Asé Queen

Circular Patterns

Life is cyclical, like a circle

Interlocked and intertwining

The blessings, the lessons, and stressing

Go on and on until it’s gone

There is no rewinding

You see, time stops for no one, man, woman or child

We live, we learn, we lose, we earn

We cry and then we smile

Generational patterns are cyclical, like a circle

They can continue to repeat

Be created or recreated, changed, broken or ceased

Day by day we see these cycles because of the foundation you laid

Each one teach one in our village

Hard work will pave the way

I promise to continue to love you

To never ever forget how amazing, powerful, determined and strong you were and will be yet again

Now you are my guardian angel

As you have always been

Although you are no longer Earth side, you do get to meet God again

Thank you for loving me way before I loved or knew myself

You showed me what love was by caring for everyone else

All of the people around you feel happiness and love

A kind of strained peace, a deep disruption and a new connection to above

As you ascend on high, gain your wings and say hello to God

I will try to be strong for everyone but you know it’s a façade

You mean so much to me, you were such a big part of my life

Will life go on the same? No way!

One moment at a time

The pain is almost stifling

It hurts too much to cry

But thankfully you were blessed with many, many years

To influence our family’s generations, even humans who do not yet exist

You were, you are forever, always in my heart

The sounds of your voice, your sneeze, your laughter resound on in my mind

As I submerse into sadness, grief and a pithy, dark time

I am and will always be completely submerged and entwined

In your love, your memories, your legacy, your family for your family is mine.

I’ll hold the family down and always be me. Speak up for the voiceless and help my community.

I will strive to make you proud. Keep my head up, and make good choices.

You told me how and what a good human should be.

As you rest eternally in love and peace…

I will demonstrate to the world the good human you’ve made of me.

When someone you love passes on, it is natural to feel big emotions, intensely. The Lord is our Comfort and present help. The scriptures below may help you and your loved ones during this time of bereavement. May God continue to bless you always.

Psalms 116:15, Proverbs 16:9, Ecclesiastes 3:1-8, Jeremiah 29:11, Lamentations 3:25, 1 Thessalonians 4:17, 1 John 3:20, 2 Peter 3:8, Revelation 14:13

Faith

Faith is something that everyone needs

Faith in goals helps us succeed

If you try hard enough, you are destined to achieve

It is yours attainable and embellished if you believe

Faith is not hope, faith is not trust

Faith is not a desire, it’s required, a must

Believing in you is only step one

There are rules and regulations on how to become

The best you that you can possibly be

Education, inspiration and determination are key

You can only do so much alone

Think of faith as a skill to hone

The power to believe in more than yourself

To know that there are others around who can help

Not only will they boost your self-esteem

But make reality of your biggest, wildest dreams

A group of people on your side

People that you have filled with pride

Always remember, faith is essential

To reach your goals and full potential

So keep going, keep your head in the game

Don’t get hyped up by the riches and fame

Keep your cool and be patient on your path clear and straight

And you can define and redefine great

Seeing Red

Red, roja, rouge, rossa

Attention grabbing, but not attention seeking

Like a rose, delicate and dangerous

Gentleness with pointy edges

Piercing slightly making blood trickle

Drip, drip, splat, boom

Fiery and explosive

Radiant like a ray of sunshine

Bronzed sun-kissed skin glows

Hot steamy danger 

Vibrant intense pulsing 

Rage, madness, chaos

Commanding power and immense clarity 

Alive, alert, absolute

Fierce like fighting for your life

Yet like a rose, delicate and dangerous

D.A.D.D.Y. (Directly Affected by Destructive Decisions of Yours)

You’re born and then you die. No, there’s much more to life. There is happiness, sadness, success and strife. You have to do something with your time here, more than make babies just to disappear. Up, up and away and out of their lives, not turning their mothers into wives. Just disappeared, dead and gone, with nothing more than a tired groan.

Why would you do that? Leave them alone? “I can’t be the dad that I want to be, so I give up, I quit. They don’t need me.” How could you live each and every day knowing you gave up and walked away; not even giving it a try, not stopping to say goodbye?

I’m not mad. I’m just letting you know. You having three kids is just for show. Yeah, you helped make them. So, what? Who potty trained their little butts? Where were you when they were sick? Out doing your thing and kicking it? There is no excuse to throw in the towel, call it quits and take a bow.

But you did what you did and now you feel the effects. Everyday there are more regrets. “Man, I should’ve… damn too late.” Be a man, step up to the plate, not for me, for you as a man. You have potential. I hope you can because all this here just isn’t cutting it anymore and it hasn’t been for the past ten years of yours. Wake up! You’re grown with three kids to support.

How can I take you seriously? You’re kind of a joke. “It’s hard out here. Nobody wants to help.”

No dude, it’s not them; it’s the time lapse you felt. Your kids are growing up so fast. You know you’ve messed up and it’s getting to your ass. Can’t go back, just move forward from here, hold every moment near and dear. “Man, it’s hard out here.” You keep saying that line. I don’t see you all the difficulties you find.

You’ve got to get yourself together and start being a man. A proud father with less doubts and I think I cans. It’s not about me. My ideas are set in stone. But for the other ones, you can’t be gone. They need a dad so you’ve got to try; even if that means some feelings get hurt and somebody’s going to cry.

I waited too long and tried so hard. It’s official… I’ve been scarred by all this pain and sorrow and mess. It has made me wonder and begin to guess. “What in the world could I have done to deserve this treatment and feel so shunned?” I’ve given up time and time and again. You were supposed to be my dad, not one of my friends.

It’s more than a title. It’s an occupation, not something you do occasionally, as recreation. Come on man, get a clue. I’m grown and I know I don’t need you. You’ve never been there, so I what’s really new?

There’s no bond, no connection, just deep despair beyond repair. An emptiness that can’t be filled by you popping up here and there. You start to ask me questions then try to compare and understand the girl I was to the woman I am.

My Significant Other

You inspire me

Yeah, that’s what he said

It made me smile and nod my head

Oh really! How’s that? I asked

Your beauty, your intelligence and that round little ass

Awww, you’re so sweet

When I’m with you my heart almost skips a beat

LOL’s and tears of joy

Falling for you is the ultimate ploy

You make me happy and you make me laugh

Losing you would have a sad, sad aftermath

Oh no baby, it’s cool. Don’t fret

I’m not going anywhere. I have no regrets

All that we do is beautiful and just

I have to have you. It’s a must

So next time you think to turn away

Think of the night you heard me say

I love you through and through.

You are definitely one cool dude

It is more than like. It is more than lust

I love you. You have my heart and my trust

I don’t just give these things away

You’ve earned them fair and square, I’d say

Know that, I am willing to change, to be good and fair

To be a better person keeping you fully aware

Of how I feel for you and the reasons that be

Just so you can awkwardly glance at me,

Ask me why I feel this and then tell me not now

Making me want to cry then I’ll break down

I’ll cry and you’ll hold me and I’ll feel better until

Until I remember that to you my love is no big deal

Mending

Of all the things to think about

It’s you that’s on my mind

As hard as I try, as hard as I cry

Everything seems to remind

Me of what I thought I wanted and what I thought I had

I’ll try to forget and then I remember, it’s all so very sad

“Why me?” is the first question that always comes to mind

But that’s too easy to answer

I’m just too one-of-a-kind!

I’m too intimidating, too assertive in my ways,

Too genuine, too vulnerable

That’s why I hurt for days

But I’m not going to change

I’m not going to regret

Just keep on moving forward

Who knows what will come next?

And then I ask myself, “what if this, this and that?”

But there are so many out there

That concept is almost too hard to grasp

It’s overwhelming to find an answer that provides adequate repair

My heart has been so broken by the power of despair

Here come the tears that flood from my soul

Because the pain is so raw and the love is so cold

Sometimes I think I will never surpass

I get frustrated and I just want to kick his ass

But it’s not his problem or his, it’s mine

And I know the only way I’ll get over it, get through is with time

Perspective

It is important to show the ones that you love

All the care in the world because

You do not know the pain that they feel,

Or how or when they’re going to heal

Make sure that you always take that into consideration

The circumstances they face, their whole situation

For everyone it is NOT all good

There is so much confusion and so many misunderstood

Don’t wrinkle your nose and stick it up in the air

These kinds of problems take time to repair

Don’t say, “ignore it,” and keep on trekkin’

On their block, you’re not good if you’re not reppin’

You may not understand the differences you see

Just know that this is their reality

Their day-to-day how to make it regime

How to determine who’s on their team

From those who are just fake and playing around

For something to do until they have found

What it is in life they are destined to do

Their calling by God, the one that is true

Gangsta’ life in the streets is not for us all

But for some, it’s live or die, rise or fall