Will I Cry?

We had not spoken in over a year

So we set out on a drive

We chopped it up and asked questions

Really had to dig down inside

I had imagined this moment

And how I would really open up

Then I remembered why we hadn’t talked

And asked myself, “For what?”

What is your purpose?

What was I supposed to miss?

I couldn’t tell you

I can’t remember

It blew away like a kiss is the wind

You’ve been in and out, out and about

Doing that and this

Odd jobs, and chasing clout

What do you even have to show for it?

That you can keep a job

Or get your own crib

For just a couple of years

You almost kind of had it “together”

Then you lost it slowly, but surely

Like a bird’s feathers every year

Bye bye goodbye

New beginnings again

Never settled, never rooted, grounded

Always hoping to ascend

But when it all ends

On the day there’s no tomorrow

I wonder what I’ll feel

Pain or maybe sorrow

I’ll look down at you

I’ll look deep inside me

And ask myself

Will I cry?

I don’t know

R.I.P.